Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Boy oh Boy, how we've been blessed!

Owen and Sam born November 2011

Owen: gift from God
Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning. James 1:17

Sam: the Lord hears
For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition that I made to him. I Samuel 1:27

 Owen and Sam - 5months

I took a leave from the blog because most of you get plenty of updates on my Facebook :) I wanted to give one last update on this blog, so that all would know the mighty thanks we give God for the two blessings he chose for us. I can't accurately express all that God taught me in our 6year wait, but I can say that He was forgiving of my impatience, anger, confusion, depression, doubt and He continually filled me with His grace and love.

I am thankful daily that God doesn't abandon or give up on me due to shortcomings.... the boys are a reminder of His good and perfect plan. I didn't do anything to earn them, I wasn't "good enough" or plea enough... He chose this generation to bring these boys into our lives, for His kingdom and His special plan for their lives. We give all the glory to God.  

Revelation 4:11 You are worthy, Jehovah, even our God, to receive the glory and the honor and the power, because you created all things, and because of your will they existed and were created.

Monday, July 25, 2011

Two Baby Boys!

Psalm 113:9 He gives the barren woman a home, making her the joyous mother of children. Praise the LORD!

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Snips and snails, and puppy dogs tails....

...that's what little boys are made of.... One BOY and One ??? We think baby B is a boy too, we hope to know 100% at tomorrow's visit! I am 19 weeks this weekend and the babies are doing great. Almost to the half-way mark :)


"Your hands made me and formed me...." Psalms 119:73

Friday, June 24, 2011

...clothed me with joy... I will give give thanks forever

I have been missing the blog world and all my friends updates! We are growing and growing and loving every moment. I still wake up each morning in awe of God's goodness in the creation of these babies. I'm almost 15 weeks and we found out we are having atleast ONE BOY! Baby B was being too still, but hoping a Coke on the way to our appointment next week will get her/him dancing around.

 I told my mom the other day that our 6year journey seems like it happened and was over in the blink of an eye. I remember days-weeks-months when I would think about how looooooong this journey felt, how I would be so sad at times, so alone, so impatient. And although I tried very hard to praise Him in the storm, it felt like the sun would never shine. I feel like the path God had us on was carefully orchestrated (which it was!) and that He knew along (which He did!) that we would get to this place in our lives and the waiting in and of itself would not matter. The lessons matter, the time I spent on my knees to Him matter, His timing matters, the love He poured onto me matters, these babies appointed time for life matters, but the actual time.it.took. doesn't matter anymore. Make any sense whatsoever?

Psalm 30:11-12
You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

How sweet He is........

Dreams becoming reality..... not only thankful for these blessings, but for the person He's helped me become through this trial.

Give thanks to the Lord, call on his name; make known among the nations what he has done. Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts. Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice. Look at the Lord and his strength; seek his face always. Psalm 105:1-5

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. Romans 5:1-5

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

I will tell of your wonders.....

I will praise you, oh Lord, with all of my heart; I will tell of all your wonders.I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing praise to your name, O Most High. Psalm 9:1,2

After 6years of negative pregnancy tests, God has chosen the perfect time to give us a positive pregnancy test! We give Him all the glory. We are doubly blessed with TWINS! We are thrilled, in awe and trusting His hands to allow these babies to grow and thrive. I'm 7 weeks, so I'm still a little nervous, but putting all my fears at his feet. My due date is this December.

My heart is still with those going through infertility struggles, I know what it's like to read posts like this one, bittersweet. You will remain in my prayers, I understand your hurt, longing and frustration.

You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever.
Psalm 30:11,12

Friday, April 8, 2011

how much more valuable you are than the birds!

And He said to His disciples, "For this reason I say to you, do not worry about your life, as to what you will eat; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing? Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; they have no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds! And which of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life's span? If then you cannot do even a very little thing, why do you worry about other matters? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you? You men of little faith! And do not seek what you will eat and what you will drink, and do not keep worrying. "Luke 12:22-29

As I eagerly await the results of our 2 embryos finding their home in my womb, I'm struck by the significance of these cute bluebird eggs I found at my moms country home a few weeks ago. I too am waiting, hoping, praying, my eggs will safely hatch.... beautifully implant.... continuing God's miracle of life as growth begins. My egg retrieval and embryo transfer are complete... fabulous results, some OHSS along the way... however, I was right in the palm of His loving hand all along. 

In Psalms 139:15, it says My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place... "Secret Place" was such a sweet description to me when I thought about my little embryos forming in the culture wells inside a dark, sterilized, medical lab. God may give the medical world knowledge and tools, but He is the ultimate Creator of Life. Oh, how precious is His name of all the earth!

Father, you are sovereign, may you and you alone receive the glory. Thank you for where you have me. Please keep me grounded while I patiently wait for the big day! Fill me up with your peace! Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you. Psalms 139:13-18